So there is such a thing as a quarter life crisis. Which I’ve been experiencing without knowing what I was experiencing.
My birthday was yesterday and I wasn’t the least bit excited about another birthday.
Normally I do get excited about birthdays, not to the point of wanting a party or anything like that. I don’t like being the center of attention. I hate that. So a party for myself is something I never want to be a part of.
But I normally want to do something. This year was different.
A couple weeks before I started to feel very depressed. I was sad and I didn’t understand why.
I felt anxious as well about my life.
Nothing was going how it should.
I tried to explain it to a few friends who are pretty close in age to me.
Only a couple understood what I was going through.
The mixed feelings about my life. Success for me wasn’t where it should be.
My goals were only a third accomplished.
The sense of emptiness for not working in my career yet, not having my masters degree yet.
The loneliness that comes from not being in a serious relationship where the next step is getting engaged.
The sadness that comes in knowing my motherly clock is starting to tick and since I’m nowhere near getting married, who knows when or if I will ever become a mother.
The friends who don’t understand said that I’m still very young. 27 is the new 21 they said. Well, hell I definitely don’t feel 21. I never had this many backaches at 21.
And the high blood pressure I’ve been experiencing never used to occur before 26.5. So I definitely don’t feel like time is on my side.
The friends who understood said they’ve felt all these feelings before. Life isn’t where we’ve expected, planned, and hoped.
Unfortunately this blog post doesn’t have a good ending or a message of wisdom because honestly I’m still down in a rut.
I want so many things to happen and quickly. But life isn’t like this. I should know by now.
I’ve always planned everything and as usual plans are made to be broken. They never end up exactly as you hope.
Its great to set goals, so you can set steps to try and achieve them. But some things are out of our hands.
Having faith is all we have sometimes.
The quarter life crisis is such a thing though. Its becoming more and more prominent.
People in their mid to late 20’s begin to feel that they’re life isn’t how it should be. They view their lives as dissatisfying especially when people in their social circle have well established lives. Such as already being successful in their dream job, getting engaged or married, and talking kids.
When you associate yourself around people who seem to be living their dream life, you generally tend to be harder on yourself. Especially if you’re not in a similar boat.
The quarter life crisis is real. If you’re going through it, know you’re not alone. It will get better, I can’t wait till it does for me so I can write about That.
It typically lasts about 2 years, oh great. But this actually is known to help 20 year olds get the push we sometimes need to keep working towards our goals.
Just don’t be too hard on yourself. Work towards what you want and live life how it makes you happy. Remember to please only yourself. What others say and think doesn’t matter.