Tonight I feel I have a lot to say.
I’m a very unhappy person, and unfortunately it’s on so many different aspects of my life.
I’m single, completely single and 27 years old.
I wish I worried less.
I wish I was skinnier.
This post sounds like a list of complaints, I know.
But I’m going to get to something positive, I promise.
There’s always a silver lining.
Always a plus to all the cons.
Or at least, ideally there should be.
My job sucks, but at least I make a couple dollars more than I did at the last place. I also happen to work conveniently close to my house. Like 8 minutes close.
As far as being single, I’m still crazy about the guy I can’t be with. So that’s a no go.
I started talking to a guy for about a month or so, things seemed like they were going well. He has his whole life together. He’s an attorney, lives a couple hours away but would travel to see me. Well yesterday, he breaks the news to me…
He is nervous to be in a relationship with me because I just got out of a 4 year relationship and he’s gotten burned with girls in similar situations.
It hurt my ego to be honest, but I figure there’s more to it than that. He probably decided on the other girl he’s been talking to longer than me, that also lives in Houston.
I missed him today, that’s normal though. I was used to talking to him like all day.
I realize what my problem is with guys.
I always fall for someone I can’t be with or isn’t a good fit for me for whatever reason. Then I get lonely and need attention. It’s easy to find that these days.
That instantaneous poof of attention.
But at the end of the day, I’m still lonely.
It doesn’t go away.
Someone will fill the void temporarily.
I’m almost 28 and let’s just say I’m not thrilled about it.
It depresses me to even think about it, so we’ll move on from that point.
I wish I worried less. I literally worry about the craziest things sometimes.
But I can’t make it stop.
Anxiety medication helps with that but now with this job I don’t have insurance.
So, another thing to worry about. No more medicine soon.
I’ve been eating healthy, trying to workout more often. I’m not fat, but I’m not my size 1-2 that I used to be and that sucks.
I don’t know when the heck I developed a butt, but butt could you please shrink a bit, maybe?
I’m going to the Bahamas in August for my birthday!!!
So I have my motivation to lose weight now!
I need to be bikini body ready, I can’t wait!